hahaholly

So im not so happy right now mainly for the fact that

 1. My little 14years old brother was sitting in jovie yesterday because he brang a swich blade with him to school

2. Why he brang it... Hes getting bullied around (again) every goddamn school that he's been to he has been bullies im so sick of it. I eefing hate highschool students why can't they just leave the middle schoolers alone? Like what the hell is so fun about beating up and a kid and scaing him to the point that he feels the need to bring a knive to school to protec his-self. He was a shopsed to come this saturday for Christmass and everything but right now we dont know whats going to happen to him. If hes going to jail, if he has to go see a therapisse, or what. He has court on thursday and then from there they will tell us if he will beable to come and see us. Which i hope that they do. I miss him and i feel like its my fault that hes doing all of this. I've tryed to teach him to stick up for himself when he needs to and to just shut up when he needs to.  But my dad has tought him to do nothing but run his mouth and piss people off so ofcrose hes going to forget what i tought him. But also i feel like its my fault cause im not there to protect him like he needs me to. No hes there in Kansass and im here in Pipers-frecking-Middle-of-no-where-Ville PA. Cant realy do much from here now can i??

So if i seem to be in just a foul mood or up set just leave me alone. Theres nothing anyone can do.

And it also doesnt fucking help that i have Rob up my ass about every little fucking thing that i do wrong. Im sorry i dont play the fucking vibe like you want me too. I play the FUCKING drums NOT BELLS get it right. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDSFvkjfsb gklsdhfsh yes if you cant tell i cant realy stand Rob. I hate the sheer fact that hes always hovering around me waiting for me to fuck up.AND doesnt help that he reaks of cigerets ALL the time and when hes RIGHT behind me and i can smell it. I just feel like turring around and asking for one right then and there and lighting it right then and there too!!! Grr and i do not like to smoke!! GAAAHH man this sucks life sucks in genrale. I have NO friends. I mean i have about 1 that lives atleast on the same contenit as me and i might get to see her next week. But as for that i dont have any friends sep for the ones i had in Japan and goddamn so i miss them..... FUCK!!! sorry i just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs till i pass out. God im such an eefing screw up....

Bye~

<# holly